I think I have an old pile of unfinished diaries that scream out in rage as I start a new one. Virtual, as it may.
I have been reading all these blogs by some immensely talented class-mates of mine and originality that I am, I felt like blogging too.
Don't judge me. I am no followers of trends. Or maybe I am. Judge away , then.
The point is that there are so many things going on and so many things that my aortic pump wants to get rid off [I watch way too much t.v, read: F.R.I.E.N.D.S].
Is it me? Or am I suddenly realising that people can see through me? I never felt I was a nice person. It is an effort to be nice. And I have always been lazy. So is that why some of these people I used to call friends have gone so cold? A friend says I am insecure and I read too much into people's actions. But I've never been wrong.
This 'friend' in college has absolutely turned her back on me and I fail to see why. I have approached her many ways but she refuses to budge. And then there is this other friend who was previously called so with quotes. I realized that this tiny adorable person has the biggest heart and the most amazing level of maturity I have ever seen. I love her.
And then there is this friend that I would love to be like , she is one in a million , everyone wants to be her friend. She epitomizes everything that is nice and good and warm and fuzzy. I feel so jealous that I have to share her affections [ample that there is] with everyone else who wants it.
Oh well. I deal.
But I realise the 'Count your blessings' bit now. This once-upon-a-time annoying hymn has found new meaning in my life. And I am thankful at the end of the all that I have a little more than the one who has nothing. :)
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