Ma

Was going through my mother's childhood pictures.
She seemed like such a happy person, with no worries, no problems, parents to take care of everything.
I've always wanted to grow up , in the right sense of the term with a job and all the independence that comes with it.
I don't want to anymore. I do not want life. I want to be with mommy forever.
And if I do grow up. I want mommy to be there alll the time.

I dunno.

Sigh.